Commitment.

28 Sep

It just started raining outside.  Not a lot.  Just a little.  Sheets of rain.  Curtains of rain.  Striations of rain.  And where the rain hit the ground, the water seemed to bounce back up, to cause the illusion of a low mist among the trees, with their green, red, and yellow leaves.

I have the itch to go out today.  A craving for salsera.  Salsa, up to now, has been a great surrogate for a relationship.  All the intimacy, without the commitment.  Not to say I haven’t experienced commitment in salsa.  I have.  Commitment to a favourite instructor.  Commitment to fellow salsa gigolos.  Commitment to a practice partner.  Sometimes a cleansing needs to happen.  A breaking of commitments.  A fresh start.  It feels like breaking-up.

I don’t know how I might deal with relationship commitment and salsa.  Dance floor seductions.  Attenuation of attractions.  Flirting is fun.  But lately, I’ve started to have the itch for a relationship.  A craving for relationship salsera.  It must be the weather.

Gratuitous Leonard Cohen » vid, “Closing Time”:

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One Response to “Commitment.”

  1. Maria September 29, 2007 at 1:33 am #

    There is no greater joy in life than to love and to be loved unconditionally. Your body may not always be able to salsa, but your heart will always be able to love. Whether or not she is a salsera is inconsequential in the end.

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